Thursday 5 July 2012

Chronicles Of A Broken Heart

As i lay next to his body, i felt a kind a guilt within me, but, it was soon to be taken over by the excitement of the moment. I had passed the night at Pringle's apartment. How i ended up at his apartment i could not tell, i was not drunk but, i must have been high on love. He was still sleeping peacefully just like a baby, no snores, no noises, just so peaceful, i looked at him, the beauty of his body, he was at my mercy, and i smiled to myself, planted a kiss on his lips and jumped out of bed.
I tiptoed into the kitchen to prepare breakfast for two in bed. Of course,needless to say that i had no spare clothing items with me, so i had to make do with his boxer's short and shirt. I felt really sexy in them , but never mind. As i poured milk into the jug, i felt his arms around me, he held me tight, with lots of passion, i need not turn , for i know the smell of his breath.
"Morning Angel", he whispers as he plants kisses all over my face.
"Morning handsome" i replied with a gentle but deep kiss. Soon after, i had my back to the wall, palms pressed firmly to nothing, he was all over me again, at first i felt guilty , but now it's a guilty pleasure.

"Cinema time, Angel", Pringle said, and i jumped at the offer for the fact that i am a cinema addict, how he got to know about that, i still do not know. I had longed to watch an Indian movie titled "i hate love stories". It is a romantic movie, with lots of emotional torture and i must have cried through out the movie.
It was lunch time and guess what? We opted for fish and chips, so simple yet romantic.

As i enjoyed the warmth of the sun against my skin, and stared into the sky, i heard him call my name gently, i turned, he cupped my face in his hands, adorned my lips with a kiss, and fell to his knees. my heart skipped, not a bit, but a jump, the butterflies in my tummy jumped all over, my heart was racing, my blood rushed, i felt too warm all so suddenly.. i thought to myself  "this is all i have been waiting for, the marriage proposal".
Pringle freed my face and imprisoned my hands, gently inter locked with his, he looked straight into my eyes, and with a bead of tear making its way to freedom from his eyes, his long eye lashes made the tears look more like an adornment than a worry.
"I am sorry, i proposed to her last night, but i am in love with you Angel", those were the words that hit me, i thought it was a joke, i was jolted back to life by the wetness of my T-shirt, i had sobbed softly in his arms, i had no strength to push him away.

By the way,Pringle and I met at Shade's  25th birthday, held at her parents' place with a few close friends. Pringle, she introduced to me as a work colleague.I was pleased to meet him, his smile was captivating, my knees almost failed me, my sweaty palms must have given me away, as we shook hands.During the course of the evening Pringle and i learnt a few things about each other whilst chatting away. The time came for the dance segment and he invited me to the dance floor, the rhythm of our bodies merged,and birthed a magical moment, i sensed his want,but, i shoved it aside.

Monday morning was busy as usual with deadlines to meet, i was so neck deep into my pile of work, that i did not notice that i had skipped both breakfast and lunch.Whilst in the middle of responding to an official   e-mail, my mobile phone rang and i picked it up in a hurry and carried on typing, i had not stop to look at the number on the phone. "Hello" i said softly down the line, "hello Angel", i was shocked and quickly checked the number on my phone, but unfortunately, it was not a familiar one. I was drawn aback by the voice on the other side of the line, "how are you today?" he asked . "Fine  thank you,how are you too?". I was still engrossed in the e-mail response when he asked me out on a dinner date, that was the moment i realised that i have being so hungry all day, but in denial of it, just to hit my deadlines. I agreed to the date.

Little black dress, they say is a girl's best friend and a "must have", i could not be bothered to make any fuss about dressing up for the date, so i showered, and slipped into my most stylish bargain black dress, bought at Armani clearance sale, i accessorized  with a wrist watch, studs earrings, and a multi-coloured sandals about 2inches high heels to assist my dinner gait,my neck was void of jewellery. Simple but elegant was my code for the night.
It was at the state of the art Italian restaurant, i enjoyed every bit of the moment, he made me laugh, he is so funny that he can put Chris Rock out of job.We got to talk more, and the rest is history. I liked Pringle a lot but, dating was not on my agenda, as i had just barely survived a heartbreak six months earlier. I told Shade about Pringle constantly and how much i love him. She would constantly encourage me to get deeper into the relationship.

I have known Shade since my childhood, our mothers got pregnant at the same time, gave birth to us within a week of each other. We were nicknamed twins, by virtue of our birth and sisterhood. We graduated from same school, same day, same course, and have been living together since our University days. Shade is the bubbly one, the chatter box , that will make listening to a radio seem like it is out of fashion.
She met her boyfriend Deji during our  year two second semester , and they have being an item since then, they won several couple awards during their University days and even went ahead to win more during our Youth Corps days. Their's is a relationship made in heaven . And the icing on the cake is that they are scheduled to get married in eight months. Of course, it is long overdue as i have always referred to them as married couple .

The sun sets and the darkness takes over, though not total darkness as the moonlight generously brightens the night. I heard the doorbell, and guess who it was? My dearest Pringle, we hugged and exchanged sweet pleasantries. He had come to take me out on another date, only that this time, things would not turn out as envisaged. I would come back home with shattered hopes of a future bride. i will seek the face i once held in my arms,i will long for this man for many years, this night, would be the end of our chapter, the bearer of our tale would put out the lamp that showed us the way.
We went out on a date, and it was fun all through that i ended up at his apartment.

He called my phone severally, but i was not in a good enough condition to speak with him. I switched my phone off, i was unreachable.In the middle of my turmoil , i drifted into sleep, i must have been asleep for about three hours, when i heard loud bangs on the door, running concurrently with the bell chimes, i jumped out of bed scared, it was 3am i thought i was being robbed , and was about to dial the Police emergency unit , before  i heard Shade's voice ,"Angel, it's Shade" she did not sound good, and i feared she might have being harassed on her way back home.

I turned the key and the door flung open, it was Shade, sprawled on the floor, hugging herself and crying intensely. I turned the lock on the door and sat quietly next to her, i said no word and asked no questions , i just held her close to me, with her head resting on my shoulder,i sobbed quietly too, as i remembered what had happened earlier in the day..



To be continued............

Tuesday 3 July 2012

Life as it is!

Life , life , oh! life
Oh! Wondering mind,
searching for what lies within you
Even with your freedom, 
you still look over the fence.


Though, one thing is always sure,
things will never be the same.  
if you keep searching for all that ,
you do not have.

You wish you could share all
the love in your heart
You wish you could be like a bird in the sky
You wish you could just be you.

But this is life as it is!